I'm Just in a Funk
"I'm just in a funk." We've all felt it and most of us have said it. I myself said it just this week. Life was overwhelming, there was too much to do and what appeared to be too little time to do it. My responsibilities and my wants were competing (and losing) to my funk. My house wasn't the way I like it, I was barely making deadlines, dinners in our house were less than insta-worthy, I was behind in my Bible studies, I wasn't taking time to take care of my health. I was in a funk and I was over it.
But a funk doesn't go away because you acknowledge it, it doesn't have an expiration date, it doesn't go away because you are over it, it doesn't go away by your own strength. The only way to rid yourself of a funk is to surrender. I know it seems odd because when we are in a funk we are already so "beat down" by life, ourselves, and the enemy that we think we just need to fight harder but that is the exact opposite. We don't need to fight at all, we need to surrender to the One who fights for us.
In surrendering to God I took all of my yucky funk to Him: my overwhelmed schedule, my poor time management, my wants, my needs, my responsibilities, frustrations, my pride, my faking it until I make it attitude, and my disillusion of power and control. I laid every bit of myself at His feet. I humbled myself before Him and relinquished control. I looked to Him to fill me up, fix me up, lift me up, and shake me up. In Him, through studying His Word and sitting silently in prayer, I lose my funk and I find my Savior, my helper, my self, my purpose.
It might seem strange or even counterproductive to relinquish control when you feel out of control or to carve out time to sit in God's presence when you feel like there aren't enough hours in the day but that is exactly what we need to do. I don't need more control I need to hand over control to our Creator and I don't need more hours in the day I need more time spent at the feet of Jesus. I don't need to just put on a brave face, keep my chin up and fake it till I make it. I need to be face down in the presence of my Savior who will comfort me, rebuke me, refine me, guide me, and love me. I'd be lying if I said this was always easy or even always pleasant but I can honestly say it is completely worth it.
So goodbye, funk. It's been fun, not really, but it's time for me to stop trying to keep my chin up when I need to be living face down.
**Please note that a funk and depression are not the same thing. If you feel like what you are experiencing is more than a funk please seek counsel. There is nothing shameful about recognizing when we need help and seeking out that help.**
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